I always had a routine of the strictest when it came to my self care.
- Kept my weight at 150 after the kids
- Exercised like a maniac
- Read a book weekly
- Skin care routine daily
- Doctor and dental care as scheduled
After the traumatic event, I really didn’t pay that much attention to my self. I had ovarian cyst that I had known about before hand. I was seeing my Obgyn regularly for treatment. I soon quit going. At 45, I had a total Hysterectomy. I had let the cyst get to the point of completely covering my ovaries. The results of that, me having severe hot flashes and gaining 72 pounds. After the weight gain, I stopped caring about myself. Or, was it before?
I moved from the job I loved back into the retail management field. Once I did that, standing, kneeling, reaching above my head took its toll (I was a Presentation Team Leader) starting with my knees. I had to have weekly injections. Next, bunions developed on both of my feet. I had the right one removed. I soon found out years later (which is now) I not only have nerve damage to my sciatic nerve; it is the root cause to all of my back, knee,and foot pain!
I could go on and on about what has happened to me because I haven’t properly cared for and about my self. I have to say that I haven’t taken care of myself physically and mentally for a long time. I felt like living in any form was painful. There were times when I would not get out of bed. There was life going on around me and I decided not to be present.
Finally! Two years ago, I started seeing a different type of therapist. The therapist started helping me to take part in reclaiming my life as I heal. C-PTSD therapy. I didn’t like it at first. The more I participated, the more I discovered about myself. Slowly I am learning how I came to this point in my life. I care about myself! I care about my physical, emotional, and mental self. I care enough to seek out the professional care I need.
Until next time,
It doesn’t matter who you are, where you are in life. It doesn’t matter what your religion is or your ethic background is. What does matter is this: how do you care about yourself?