Difficult Days

Today started off as becoming one of the difficult days. If you are like me, having Depression linked with PTSD and Social Anxiety, your days can become simply surviving. To help me through the tough times, I pull up memories and thoughts that represent where I want to go and who I am becoming. Sure, I could sit and waddle in self-pity, but what am I accomplishing? Nothing.

I use these days as stepping stones. I don’t want to drown in a sea of despair, so I am careful to touch each stone at least once. As I stand there, I visualize my surrounding to see what’s ahead of me. There are so many stones of what effect trauma has had on me. They only lead to dark places I visited before. I could easily slip back into that place because the stones are worn from previous steps.

I congratulate myself on choosing a smaller stone of affirmation, “keep going, you got this”. I think I’ll stay here today.

Sometimes when you can’t do anything else, you have to stand firm where you are. This stone is not worn at all! I haven’t been on it for very long, therefore it will hold me up until I free space in my mind from negative thoughts.

Until next time,

There is a lesson to learn from every negative thought. It is a part of you, but it is not you.

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