Yesterday was a good day for me. I overcame most of the anxiety I had about life, my mother, my children, and myself. To get away from the racing thoughts, I’ve always kept busy. You know, doing things in the home. At some point, it stops working.
I found that journaling my thoughts helps to calm my mind to the point of actually thinking one thought at a time. When I do that, I’m able to process and solve whatever I was anxious about.
Yesterday, I was so focused on the 2 separate mass killings. I wasn’t able to get anything done. So, I turned to what calms me. I like to shop online instead of going into a store. It helps me to deal with the social anxiety I have.
Another soothing things for me is window shopping. I do this online by looking at all the items I want and saving them to my account. When I feel calm, I go back to my thoughts and process them. It’s a great way to bring my emotions down to a level I can function at. It usually takes me about 30 minutes.
Today, right now, I’m just not feeling like doing anything. So instead of getting anxious, I’m going to rest until I feel like getting up. I’m not focusing on tomorrow because it’s too far away. I’ve been told to take PTSD one day at a time because you don’t know what’s going to trigger you. Don’t expect negative things, instead look and produce your own positivity. After all, it’s your life and your journey.
Until next time,
Every day is different. Don’t expect yesterday’s results to work for today’s and today’s to work for tomorrow.