I thought if I joined an online group of mental health peers, that would be the first in my journey to become socially adequate. Little did I know about how some people only join groups to spread more negative energy to themselves, and others who are already hurting.
I posted a positive quote about taking time to transform. There was a picture of a caterpillar transforming into a butterfly. Some posted, “BS, we don’t have time for that. We need to do this now”, or something like that.
Surprisingly, I didn’t get angry or sad. I felt I needed to speak out against that negativity. I never speak up! I posted this: “well ______, maybe that is why you are here. You’re not taking time to heal. No offense. If you don’t have anything positive to say to someone, please don’t share that negative energy”, or something like that.
Right now, I don’t know how I feel. During my C-PTSD therapy, I learned to address negative energy directed towards or about me and my emotions towards that energy. I may not feel that I did the best thing at the moment, but it sure feels good to have addressed negativity quickly for once.
I am grateful for this new found side of me!